Embarking on a new journey

Have you ever wondered why the extreme hollowness you feel over the loose ends of the situations which you really want to leave behind and move forward yet the pain had become so familiar that it gets extremely uncomfortable to leave the hands to explore new pastures?That is precisely what gets me intrigued about life in general and in the situations that I am residing nowadays.Though a sense of uncertainty about most of the things is pretty scary to handle yet the butterflies that irks me to step onto the meadows of exploration is too seductive to thrive in fear.I have always been too philosophic,sometimes impractical,lazy and yet contempletuous about the various pain and incidents that life throws to us and how a tiny lesson is cutely wrapped inside its wrapper .Steve Jobs had very well said that life cannot be understood moving forward ,the story can only be created only when we look back and connect the dots.Having done many mistakes,handled extreme pain,been impractical at times,losing my heart for someone,philosophising and getting excitement on my 22 years of my existence residing alone in my mind I ponder whether I can still dust myself  by writing the first line of the story.New beginnings had always made me anxious yet  a high dose of excitement was also present with it.Being a hard core bengali and humming over tagore's-'PURANO SEI DINER KOTHA',the romantic nostalgia of the past had always haunted me and presented a jolt for the future.Yet past has always been like the passionate lover we all had,who had instilled tremendous pain in our heart but like foolish kids hungry for love we have always returned to it to meet the lost 'us' and create a sense of a protagonist in our own unpublished novels of life.Even though the past lingers on the shoulders and tightens the grip over our cranium,now it is the time to hold it by the neck keep it by the side and hold the hands of future with our wounded hands.Lets play the random games,lets be scarred with fear,and still lets have a smile of hope to hold the pen with the trembling hands to write the first line of our new chapter-'embarking on a new journey'.